Oh.Dakota.

my cousins sleeping over and i'd be playing Conduit right now cause i think i made the conncetion better but he's playing ps2 so yeah


i was getting bored with the games i had on my computer so i look for my starcraft cd's cause that has like infinite replay value and yeah
i have like 2 cd cases of starcraft so i went over and opened one
and i found a CD labeled .. "just listen"

now.. alright whats the biggie.
biggie is..this was from Lianne aka ex girlfriend from 8th grade :[
my heart just like.. went overdrive when i saw it like suddenly haha like those little flsahback montages
but honestly i think she was the best girlfriend i had and i threw it away D:
from the flagpole pokes to the day at the park
she made me cookies that were bomb and even used me as her photobucket password.
not to be conceited but in 8th grade , there was a lot of girls that liked me and actually admitted it, ironically the girls i liked that year didnt. but there was just something about Lianne that made me answer "she's amazing" when people asked me why i liked her
pirasuars haha oh man. but yeah
in the beginning in mrs jacksons class i thought she was like mad dogging me and we wouldn't get along. i was a loner in the morning cause i got dropped off so early and then when some of the people came me her and a couple people would help put up the flag then we just started poking eachother and started talking on aim and stuff
we gave eachother nicknames like chewy and chunky :P i remember in my profile i put a lyric on my buddy info WAIT I JUST REMEMBERED I POSTED A BLOG ON MY MYSPACE OR SHE DID ABOUT WHEN I ASKED HER OUT anyway, it said "should i fall for you" and she asked
she was on my mind back then but i didnt admit it
back then me and Chelsea were really close and she was like the only one who knew about my plan to ask her out. I told her to close her eyes and spin around 3 times and put her arms up, then i hugged her and asked her out. she was really something special and we spent the last few months of middle school together. on graduation day , everything was hectic but then i tried to look for her and called her over and i said bye and tried to give her a kiss but failed and got like her ear haha cause she turned accidentally :]
but summer , it's my curse actually with long periods of time, someone pointed that out to me, i began to lose interest and we just didnt talk as much. me and oliver were close back then and i would talk to him about how i would break up with her and everything.
one day i hung out with mona WAIT SHE EVEN PLANNED A SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY FOR ME IN MS SANTOS' CLASS WHERE WE WOULD HANG OUT THERE TOO :]
but anyway one day i hung out with mona and tried to catch Lianna after school which i managed to do but i was supposed to break up with her then :[
we spent a lot of time at the park just sitting and her putting her head on my shoulder and me looking at my new phone :P
but yeah it didnt go so i dropped her home and she said "i dont get a hug?" so i gave her a hug :P
haha but eventually things had to end so i called her up one day very very anxiously and told her i don't think its working out but i still want to be friends.
i'm a super liar.
i dont think ive actually talked talked to her since then. maybe like a sentence or two but that was a genuine like i had for her :D
i feel bad for throwing it all away and even for semi cheating on her by talking with Jaimee during summer and flirting
i was planning on telling her sorry like today on myspace but imma see her tomorrow again so i'll probably tell her then and try to revive a friendship that i'll admit
i miss

I miss.. 8th grade so much.